So, so confused all the time.
What am I doing? Where am I going? WHYwhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy.
Hahaha, are you reading this? Are you? Do you see this? Do you do you do you?
Hrm. Now that I've made a travesty of this entry, I probably should like... do something stupider. Yeah. Like I don't know.
Okay, so yeah, life has been rather bizarre as of late. I go from being extremely happy to just... really confused. I think I'm waiting for something to start, that might not ever start, and I'm stalled. Stuck. And MAJORLY screwed.
Hrm. Life could definitely be worse. Ah yes, a LOT worse. Actually, I'm enjoying myself for the most part, and I feel like I have mostly everything under control. Everything is falling together rather nicely.
It's just that sometimes it feels like something majorly important is missing. I don't really know what it is. Any lingering feelings that I had from the past have resolved themselves. I don't need anyone or anything to make me happy. Just myself. And that's a confidence boost onto itself.
But still... something... is off. Something is not right. Sorry for being vague. I don't really know how to describe myself, and rambling feels good. Being vague is good. Being vague means hiding stuff. And hiding stuff is ALWAYS good. Yum. Hrm.
Nobody reads this anyway, harrharr.
I'm writing like an asshole.
Who cares.
I want to cuddle with someone. Any takers? I'm good at cuddling.
Soliciting cuddles. Where the hell has the world come to? Nowhere, really. Everything moves on without me.
I want to be alive again.
You. Open my heart.
