I can't believe it.
Sti is actually gone.
College has happened, it's upon us. I went to a mini-orientation thinger, and met some of the friendliest, nicest people that I ever could. We went to Starbucks, got Jamba Juice, and felt like we'd known each other forever.
Why do I feel guilty about this? Why do I cling so desperately now, for the past?
I couldn't wait for high school to end - and I'm still glad that it did. But I'm really going to miss my friends. Stuff will never, ever be the same ever again. We'll never be in the same situations, sit at lunch, be in class together. We won't hang out by the vending machines, tear up Driver's Ed, hang out as an official group, or help each others with papers and homework.
It was so emotional last night. I was staring at Stina, my best friend for the past four years, and the only person that I truly care about that's leaving for college, and it hurt. The tears started flowing for Roe, Meeny, and me, and we didn't want to let her go. Seven hours away. It's 1 AM, and she's already there. Wow.
Do I have any regrets? No. The excitement is building - and frankly, I can't wait. My school is full of people just like me, people that I can relate to. Never before have I been THIS excited about going back to school. I'm itching for it to happen, grasping for it with nervous tension.
I'm glad I'm not losing Joe too. We're going to see each other as often as we do now. That's one small relief to look forward to. I look into his eyes and smiling face and know that this is so right, that we are meant to be together, and in an instant, all of my worries are gone.
All that's really left to say is that we've had a really excellent run. School sucked, but you all brightened my days and weekends.
To everyone that's leaving - have fun, and get drunk a couple of times for your sXe friend.
To all the rest of you rascals staying local - the party is just beginning - get lost in it.
Signing off until college begins,
Christine.
