I'm drowning in the uncontrollable, and I don't know what to do.
Why do people tell you things you never want to know, never want to see happen? All you wish is that you can press re-wind and erase, and shove all those shocking words right back in that person's mouth.
My mouth is numb, my hands are shaking. I hate secrets, especially ones that make you tremble with the anxiety of holding it. The suffering secrets. The ones that haunt you in your sleep and wake you from your dreams. The tension that builds up in your body, that you can't talk to your friends, can't enjoy normal conversation, can't function correctly, until the bastard thing is out. And then, that's when everything is wrong, and confused, and mis-matched.
I just have to keep asking, "Why was I chosen to guard this? Why me? Why? Why do things happen to hurt the people we love the most?" I can't hold something like this in. It hurts. I'll burst.
All I can say is that I will kill that person. Kill them. For revenge, and justice will be served.
