Well, it looks as if I've caught my boyfriend's cold, and all I've been doing is sniffling.
More and more I'm hating President Bush. A few years ago, I knew so little of politics, that I couldn't care less who was elected into office. In a mock election in 8th grade I remember voting for Bush, and our "President" winning by a landslide.
How could I have been so blind?
I began to dislike him when, during the debates, he wanted to tear up Alaska for oil. That's when I felt the smallest bit of distrust against our "Commander in Chief," if you could call him that. From there, it has continued to definitely gone downhill.
Then there was the pretzel incident. If our President can practically die by choking on a freakin' bite-size snack, then you know there's a problem. Plus the fact that he tripped over that Segway. That was just friggin' hilarious. Just the fact that he was actually elected into office just shows how ill-informed our nation really is.
I hate the society we live in. I hate it with a passion. The girls and the boys, exact carbon copies of each other. I'd like to think that I'm better than that, but when I reflect upon it, I'm probably just like that. We all conform to something, don't we? Nobody is ever truly different.
I went to the doctor's today, and took a blood test. Simple procedure, they prick your finger and then draw the blood out slowly. For some reason, I was fascinated with the blood welling up from my fingertip. Blood has such a beautiful color, a deep, crimson thickness. I couldn't help but think, that's part of my life, seeping out of the tip of my finger. It's strange to think that that very substance is sustaining me, and that without it, I would be dead.
I've lost weight, again. It's the diet they have me on because of my migraines. The reason why I've been absent for so many days. I'm down to 87 and a half pounds, which is pretty light for someone who's rapidly nearing 17. And no, I don't have an eating disorder. It's far from it. I know that I'm small and skinny, a pale little white girl, dark circles under my eyes, raccoon eyes.
I wonder if one of these days I'll just disappear, swallowed up by my shadow.
