I'm feeling a lot of different emotions at the moment.
It's perfectly quiet, the only sounds in my ears are the clicking of the computer keys and the gentle hum of the computer.
I'm so lonely right now. Joe and I just went bowling and ate at Applebees, and now he's gone. I'm content, but it's an irritated sort of content.
Then there's the matter of school. Yes. Apparently I have been absent too much, and they're threatening to fail me. Me, honors student, over 250 hours of community service, scholarship, NHS nominated, in over 6 clubs, holding offices in two, holding a job as a teenage reporter. I'm so scared and nervous. There's just this knot in my stomach, this little aching feeling that they really are going to fail me. And then my hopes, dreams, and desires will all go out the window. No college, no good job, no money, no nothing. I'm so scared that the tears are pricking at the corners of my eyes.
If they do fail me, my mom's pulling me from this school. I cannot believe that I would fail due to class participation, when I'm one of the only ones that actually raises her hand and tries to answer questions.
I've been so stressed out lately, so much garbage hanging over my head. I keep it all inside, bite back the tears and hold it in. I always hold it in. It just consumes me, inside.
One day I'm going to break, and I wouldn't be suprised if I don't end up in a mental institution.
