Woah. Homework overload. What a busy week. I'm taking out ten measley minutes of my precious time to talk with you. So here I am. Talking. Um, yeah.
The week has been utterly and completely tiring. I swear, I am so burnt out I can't even begin to talk about it. It's just been a ton of make-up work, topped by a lot of stress and various goings-on for the Superdance, which is this Saturday. I'm trying to help in any way possible, but my committee basically accomplished nothing. That's right, nothing. If I have any seat of power next year, I'll be working full throttle for Entertainment Committee.
Anyway, it's just been a lot of makeup tests and stuff. And a lot of ponderings, mixed in with some philosophical debates.
If we're all different, then aren't we all the same, being different? It's a hard concept to understand, but..
I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Sometimes I wish I could live in the past. I think that's one of my biggest problems: putting myself way too much into the past. I've been told that I dwell too much on past happenings. Maybe that's true, maybe not. I guess it's a way to escape. That and reading and going online and playing games and listening to music. And the people around me.
It's just been a roller coaster lately. My health hasn't been exactly the best, and I've been going through these mini bouts of depression. Sometimes I wonder that if deep down, everyone just hates me.
It's all a show,
It's all a game...
It's just so difficult sometimes to describe what I feel. I guess it's sort of fear for the unknown, fear for what I can't see. I realized that I doubt so much stuff, and I'm always wondering if there's this conspiracy against me or something. Like the world is out to get me. I'm a defeatist. I've been snapping at everyone and been really just...in a weird mood lately. Frustrated at myself.
I've got to sign off now, and homework calls...
